"An oblivious death of a grotesque nightmare... blood dripping from it's decapitated abysmal body... the silhouette of the moon... overwhelmed completely by darkness... deceased bodies everywhere... while a sharp knife... thrusted at my head... covering my face with blood... as my head departs from my body... death is grinning... right beside me... isn't it a lovely sight?..." that's me... so don't you dare give a crap... im warning you! i have a dead salmon in my hand... and im not afraid to use it!

This week's "Last Song Syndrome" is...

Artist: Deftones
Song: Back to School

The feeling that engulfs my sanity is...

Sleeping soundly in the dark

Jakyu
& Deft_sheep

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Entries for February, 2004

February 3, 2004
Uhmm...
Posted at 01:16 PM

uhmmm... ignorante pako dito so sorry if this "part" sorta sux... "first time ko e... d pako ready..." hahah... so far this entire day sux... it usually does... well... not really... i think... hmmm.... boring kasi e... hindi nanaman ako ma22log... have some leveling up to do.... mag aaddict.... hehehe... hmmmm.... san n kya poporing ko? hihihi.... :) d ko pa napapakain... baka d na loyal yun... hihihi... nako nagloloot pa naman yun pag galit.... hala.... kasi naman kagabi.... kulit kulit e... hihihih :) ah basta... :]
huh?'s ano daw?? Mad At Gravity's Stay


February 5, 2004
Bad3p...
Posted at 08:35 AM

Screw this crappy day! lotsa crap... y? hehehe... :) kasi naman... ginagalit nanaman ako ng.... ahh!! basta... my mind's so paranoid today... im so damn messed up... i feel like my mind's gonna blow... sh*t! everything just seems to be so confusing!? bakit ganito? bakit ganon? bat ganon si ano? anong gagawin ko ngayon? nasan na siya? nakakainis naman sila! bakit ganito nararamdaman ko? galit ba siya? ano ba talaga nararmdaman ni ano? aaaaah! questions questions questions...... waaah crap! and those annoying signboards! [ if that's what they call it ] P'cha, i wasted my whole afternoon painting and painting such freakin' signboards na itatapon lang naman after it was stupidly displayed! kakabadtrip! tapos when i went to our "tambayan".... p'cha wala na ngang ragna... wala pa siya?! i wasted 40 bux just to do what... nothing!? heck... naubusan pako ng pera for nothing! buti nalang im watching spongebob.... while i'm making this crap... made me laugh a bit... haha... niway, san na kaya poporing ko...? d ko na siya nakita.... puro ano kasi ang inaatupad... hindi yung poring nya... tsk tsk tsk... wawa naman poring niya... hihihih ;] waaaah.... miss ko na poporing ko... :( and speaking of my poporing... haay... ang gulo parin... ewan! kasi naman... bat kasi ayaw pa nila e.... lalo na si... kaya yan, hirap ako ngayon... tapos may eepal ba sa buhay ko!? ass.... feeling naman niya papatulan ko siya... heck hindi ko pa kilala yun! and gosh... may pa "i miss you" effect pa siya... feeling naman niya sasbihan ko siya ng "i miss you too" p'cha... ulul.... hahah! :D Sana naman... maayos na to... :( grabe.... im so freakin' tired.... im really longing for coffee exp's oreo milk shake with whip cream and chocolate syrup on top with matching cold chips ahoy cookies.... to munch on... mmmmm.... chips ahoy cookies.... *drools* hihihi... :|
idiot's Journal Counter strike's noise [ yung sound ng mga baril n' stuff ]


February 9, 2004
This sux!
Posted at 08:54 PM

This really sucks! sobrang nananadya na toh... since thursday pa tong mga kamalasan na nangyayari sakin... its totally pathetic... p'cha sunod2 pa yun... nakakabad3p! :( from dusk till dawn sira araw ko! why? well one of the reasons is nakatulog ako... natulugan ko poporing ko! damn it! kausap ko siya... tapos nung busy siya napa-iglip lng ako sandali... then i woke up and noticed na disconnected nako! kakainis! and talk about last night... ugh?! kagabi talaga ako na bwisit ng sobra sobra e.... as in because of that, my whole day's messed up... sabog.... s*ht... well i just hope this day wont entirely suck! oh how i wish it wouldn't suck.... crap...
Glassjaw's Ape Dos Mil


February 14, 2004
Anniversary of an uninteresting event....
Posted at 01:07 AM

Why are we celebrating this certain event? bakit ba? it seems so strange and pathetic... valentines has no difference with holloween... celebrating something useless... why show love and affection only on this day? not the day after... or the day after tomorrow? or the day after the day after tomorrow? why only this day? obviously, im saying these things cuz i think V.tines day is stupid... well... not entirely... before... oo... hahaha... this day's only "special" to those who have... u know... but seems like any other ordinary day to single people... like me... haha... its pathetic... i know... hahah... its so unfair... why do most people feel love? e pano yung mga walang "nimamahal" sa buhay? magpipilit? and those hopless romantics... ugh!... they make valentines a hunting day... hunting for love? heck that's stupid.... haay... last year i dated a pentium 4 pc at a comp shop... saya noh? :] but still... ayoko na maging chaperon! it really irritates me pag nasa gitna ka ng isang couple... they're eyes are glued to each other, tapos they keep on saying "i love you my sweet hunny baby" to each other... tapos nakatunganga ka lang sa isang tabi... pinipigilang manapak ng tao... ugh! so pathetic... i just hope this day won't suck... so much crap today...

[This part was written exactly 5 seconds before midnight]

Hmm.... hmmmm.... grabe... naguguluhan tlga ako! :) i really don't know if this day sux or not! They seem so equal... well not really... i think this day's quite nice... hahaha... anyway, this day's really... surprising... as in... especially after i called my mom... what happened back there really... surprised me! :) Grabe, first time ko lang maranasan na hindi makahinga sa sobrang gulat! hehehe... astig nga yung feeling e... its like you're having a heart attack... you're heart feels really heavy and throbing really fast... while you're mind tries to recall what happened... cuz it happened so fast.... kasi naman e... kagagawan nanaman ng poporing ko... heheheh.... :) anyway, nako! natulugan ko nanaman poporing ko! waaaaah.... baka cardial nalang yun... d na loyal.... hala! heheheh.... :D haaay... ginantihan pako ngayon! heheh... siya naman ang tulog! its a pity though, there's no black rose... darn... tsaka walang nagbigay sakin ng kahit ano.... (like i care?!) hahaha... ngayon ko lang naconclude... na V.tines isn't that bad at all.... not bad at all... wether you have a "special someone" or none at all.... it still won't be a pathetic holiday.... hahaha.... Anyway, i can't stop thinking bout what happend last night... as in... grabe... lupet talaga....haay... hindi talaga ako makapaniwala... last night... as in parati ko nalang iniisip yun... every single detail.... lalo na kanina....as in LALO na kanina... lalong LALO na kanina.... that i really didn't expect... akala ko nga kanina nananginip lng ako e... kasi that cannot, i mean cannot possibly happen.... as in impossible.... but it did... it did.... on this day pa... buti nalang... hihihih :) pag naaalala ko yun... and all the things i've heard.... felt and saw... i smile... not a faint one... but a sweet smile...... :) [P'cha! for the first time...]
Nickelcreek's Sabra Girl


February 17, 2004
Mamatay ka na jokla!!
Posted at 06:06 PM

Naka ng potek! eheheh... kakainis... ang gulo tlga ng ulo ko ngyon?! as in... ahahah... and sobrang laki ng hatred so mga bading ngayon... kaya patay patay si ***g* sakin... p'chang jokla yan! he thinks he's so tough! jokla naman! feeling niya lakas lakas ng character nya? heck.... boastful jackass... i bet najojokla na yan... itsura palang e, mukha na siyang bading! napaka loser naman ng character niya! asshole... he feels secure when his macho fafa is beside him naman e... pero pag siya absent, p'cha nilalandi sila anjo?! shocks.... of all the species in this world... bat lalaki pa ang pinili ng jokla na yun! Janice my dear, wag kanang hoping ok?! last saturday i was totally grossed out at what i heared from richard... kung pwede nga sapakin ko na yun e! biro mo, akala niya naging kami dati?!!


YUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK!


*coughs* of all the crappy sh*t in the world?! heck, mas gu2suhin ko pa pumatol ng... ng... aah! what the heck! kadiri! gross... totally gross! and picture this, just because i dumped his sorry ass twice, he attempts to ruin my rep in school!? Asus, nadaigan pa ang babae ng p'cha! You're idiotic face makes me sick! Agh! nakakainis!! tapos... tapos... agh! men are so IRRITATING! MEN SUCK! KAMOTE KAYONG LAHAT!!! lalo na mga JOKLA na tulad ni JANICE!! KAMOTE KAYOOOOOOOOOOOOO! well.... not all men... hihihihi... ;)


February 22, 2004
Scared of the song gloomy sunday?
Posted at 02:36 AM

Ever heard of the disturbing song gloomy sunday? and that weird "curse" that overwhelms it? hmm... weird nga e... pero astig siya... one of my fave songs.... for me, the curse thing is just an absurd figment of one's imagination... its not really a curse... its more of an effect... for example, if you listen to a sentimental song, automatically, magpapaka-senti ka... and eventually, you'll think of your loved one... diba? so, if you listen to this song while you're depressed, you'll be thinking of suicide... then maybe (if you're that desprate... and stupid) you'll commit suicide. Pero malay mo.... its ture... last week, habang nakikinig ako ng mga mp3s nakita ko na nasa playlist namin yung "Gloomy sunday". alam ko agad na ate ko ang nagdownload nun... kasi si byork ang artist e. it was 11:58 pm nung napakingan ko yun, sobrang depressed ko nun. Grabe... it was... disturbing... p'cha! Sobrang... enigmatic ng dating... what's worse is version pa ni byork yun, lam nman natin mga kanta ni byork... mga u know.... hehehehe... it really freaked me out... lalo na nung pinakingan ko yung original version ng "gloomy sunday"... mas nakakatakot... pero astig! heheheh.... Its weird but u gotta "think deep" to understand the real essence of the song. Pag ako naging sikat na singer unang kakantahin ko "gloomy sunday" para patay lahat... hehehehe :) i was totally curious about this song so i researched about it on the internet. i read all the facts and even the biography of the writer. (ganyan ako kadesperado... hahaha! :D) hmmmm.... ang haba nga e... hehehe... but here goes nothing....

In December, 1932, a down and out Hungarian named Reszo Seress was trying to make a living as a songwriter in Paris, but kept failing miserably. All of his compositions failed to impress the music publishers of France, but he was determined to become an internationally famous songwriter. His girlfriend had constant rows with him over the insecurity of his ambitious life. One afternoon, things finally came to a head. Seress and his fiancée had a fierce row over his utter failure as a composer, and the couple parted with angry words.

On the day after the row (which happened to be a Sunday) Seress sat at the piano in his apartment, gazing morosely through the window at the Parisian skyline. Outside, storm-clouds gathered in the grey sky, and soon the heavy rain began to pelt down. "What a gloomy Sunday" Seress said to himself as he played about on the piano's ivories, and quite suddenly, his hands began to play a strange melancholy melody that seemed to encapsulate the downhearted way he was feeling over his quarrel with his girl and the state of the dispiriting weather."Yes, Gloomy Sunday! That will be the title of my new song" muttered Seress, excitedly, and he grabbed a pencil and wrote the notes down on an old postcard. Seress sent his composition off to a music publisher and waited for acceptance with a lot more hope than he usually had in his heart. A few days later, the song-sheet was returned with a rejection note stapled to it that stated: "Gloomy Sunday has a weird but highly depressing melody and rhythm, and we are sorry to say that we cannot use it."

The song was sent off again to another publisher, and this time it was accepted. The music publisher told Seress that his song would soon be distributed to all the major cities of the world. The young Hungarian was ecstatic. But a few months after Gloomy Sunday was printed, there were a spate of strange occurrences that were allegedly sparked off by the new song. As the months went by, a steady stream of bizarre and disturbing deaths that were alleged to be connected to Gloomy Sunday persuaded the chiefs at the BBC to ban the seemingly accursed song from the airwaves. Back in France, Rizzo Seress, He wrote to his ex-fiancée, pleading for a reconciliation. But several days later came Seress learned from the police that his sweetheart had poisoned herself. And by her side, a copy of the sheet music to Gloomy Sunday was found. He too commited suicide....

Wow...... grabe astig noh? hehehe... :)


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