"An oblivious death of a grotesque nightmare... blood dripping from it's decapitated abysmal body... the silhouette of the moon... overwhelmed completely by darkness... deceased bodies everywhere... while a sharp knife... thrusted at my head... covering my face with blood... as my head departs from my body... death is grinning... right beside me... isn't it a lovely sight?..." that's me... so don't you dare give a crap... im warning you! i have a dead salmon in my hand... and im not afraid to use it!

This week's "Last Song Syndrome" is...

Artist: Deftones
Song: Back to School

The feeling that engulfs my sanity is...

Sleeping soundly in the dark

Jakyu
& Deft_sheep

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Entries for December, 2004

December 8, 2004
A little help guys?
Posted at 09:58 AM

A little help guys?

Uhmm.. to those who know how to make or fix templates or "blog skins" a little help naman please hehehe... there's this template that i really like... but unlike this template i have right now, its a bit more difficult... ( since i know nothing about such, and our pc is broken again?! ) so please pleaseeeeee help me... ahahahah :D just message me or something ayt? thanks a bunch!
Radiohead's The Pyramid song


December 8, 2004
Three words : I hate...
Posted at 10:13 AM

Competiton namin ngayon sa wall, scapi. hahaha... i don't know if this day sucks or not. oh well.. anyway, i decided to join the competition since its free n all, just for fun. And fun indeed... hahahaha! First of all, there he was, with a panda on the back of his shirt... ( talk about perfect timing! wahahaha! ) Sobra kinilig ako nung lumapit siya, while i was looking at the uhm... paper thingy. hahaha... Easy lang sa pakipot na pagsilay, you know who you are! pasimple ka pa! Bulok na yang style mo chong... i met lotsa wall commitee, including Shane. Stig nga e, kulet namin! hahahaha ( Mga pasaway! ) Si sir Jap kj ampu. I saw Mary and the others left, puta. Pano ba naman? tss.. I told jake na susunod nalang ako, asa. Anyway, thanks to yours truly nakalabas si Gio, bonding nga kami eh... hahaha.. I met Suzanne and Mikki while we were eating at Mcdo. Guess what? Katabi ko si law while i was ordering my food! Wahahaha! our hands are like 2 inches apart ( Hala kinilig ang lola! Haba ng hair ) Bwahahahaha... happy. Tapos sumabay pa kami sa kanila pabalik sa school. I did a lot better sa finals rather than the prelims. ( Weird noh? ) It was my first time to reach the overhang at the 4th wall... woah... hahaha... Shane and i bonded while watching Kevin do a dyno. Stig nga eh, while he was climbing, piapatugtog nila ate Crissy yung theme song ng "Masked Rider". Hahahaha... kulet. Grabe, i knew it all along... Pagkakaguluhan si Law ng mga Lower highschool... tss... akin na yun ayt?! wahahah! Jesse won the "Early Bird" award... Bagay... hahahaha! After the comp we went to Mary's. We ate food at thier aunt's house; stig nga e, umiinom yung bagong binyag na baby. hahah... We drank 3 grandes only. Bonding kami ni Gio nun, laugh trip. By the way....

I would like to announce that Gio and Ava are unoffically in a relationship right now. Happy monthsary... hahahaha!

Anyway, Bonding din kami ni Allan at that time. ( To the point na share kami. ) How sweet pa nga eh, i was suppose to buy load ( Nanaman, kulet kasi ng mga kausap sa cell eh! ) since na no one's around i went to the store myself. I turned around and saw him catching up, sinamahan pa niyako. buti pa siya. And speaking of cellphones, hahah... Chiri Chiri mga kausap ko nun! hahaha... Screw panda that time... tss... fool. Sobrang pissed nako sa kanya nun.. Fag. Buti pa attempt attempt nanaman. ( Buti kaya?! ) Stig moms nila Ava't Mary, fluent sa Japanese. Sobrang onti lang ng mga naintindihan ko sa mga pinagsasabi nila. hahaha... Tomodachi? Iya. Bakero Koibito sama... hahaha... Dramahan nanaman si Gio, but thankfully they're okay na. Richard just stayed in Mary's room with Ava, binabantayan lang siya, isn't that sweet? Ate Corrs came by, grabe, rock trip kami. Stig nga niya e, we have lotsa things in common. We talked about how she met people, mga pasaway moments niya and mga banda na malulupet.

Urbandub, malupet.

Marc Abaya, VERY VERY hot.

Diego Mapa, HOTness din.

Hahahaha.... it was weird but i suddenly had an urge to go home. Maybe its because i was totally pissed off or its already 10:30 pm. After being called by my mom, nagyaya nakong umuwi. Panda was sleeping, bagsak siya eh. Hinatid niyako sa house ng lola ko, then we talked at the phone pag uwi niya. Tsss... we admitted stuff that was totally bullsh*t. ( And it hurts... REAL bad. ) Pucha.. Three words : I hate you.



Kjwan's Daliri


December 8, 2004
Physics trip...
Posted at 10:16 AM

Arghh... this day, it sucks... grabe... things were fine until... tss... Yokong sabihin, its too much to bare. Basta, i felt the same way i felt last year. Kala ko naman wala na yun, kaso... well if that's what they want, fine. I'm nothing compared to her anyway, right from the beginning. Diba *toot*? Anyway, just as i was suppose to devour myself with guilt and tears, our cousin or "tito" invited us again to, you know, "Cousinly Bonding" nanaman! ( bonding talaga! ) Oh no, may pasok pa pala bukas, oh well... It was only me, my sis, Janno and Paulo. ( The pasimuno. ) Sayang nga lang wala si Faye at Daniel ( Nauna na eh, walang pakisama ampu.. hehehe.. ) Bought snacks, ice and we're ready to go. It was already 12, share sis ko and si Pau sa Emp, kami naman ni Janno sa Light. (Sakin naman pinaubos! ) Lakas nga ng trip ko eh, i was studying PHYSICS at that time. ( woah... physics... heheheh! ) Trip ko lang ( Hard to believe noh? ) Problemado sa Paulo, heart broken ata... awww... ( Don't worry, dadamayan kita.. i too am over depressed... because of that freakin panda! argghh... ) Heart to heart kaming mag pipinsan, share share ng love life. Paulo even intrigued me about Jessie?! ( Hu-what?! hihihi... ) They know each other kasi eh, to the point na kinuwento pa ni Jessie yung nanyari kayla Mary. ( Talagang close kayo eh noh?! hahahah... ) We finised quickly coz Paulo got all praning and stuff. I on the other hand, was desprate in finding that batch 12 thingy in physics. ( Physics nanaman... iba na talaga ba problemado.. ) As in 3 nako natapos and still no sign of it! arrgghh... ( and to think may amats pako nun ) Haaay, when i woke up, sarap pumasok sa school! To the point na 8 nako nakapasok... scholar mode... Ü
Radioactive sago project's Astro


December 8, 2004
Mr. MVP turns 16.
Posted at 10:17 AM

Tada... me again! haha.. anyway, today's the birthday of our MVP kabarkada Mr. Ryan Viray! he's now 16 (Well actually nung thursday birthday niya, he just celebrated it today kasi... hahaha! ) Anyway, it was still waaay too early so house trip lang ako. Kainis nga eh, gabi yung party hindi hapon and as always, hindi ako makakalaro kayla tita coz puno na! arghhh... My parents went to lake island ( beach resort) coz they have to speak for the couple's retreat of our church. 5 : 30 na, still no phone calls, no party. It just stopped raining, mas lalo akong tinamad. ( How come everytime there's a party parating umuulan? as if it's intentionally destroying my mood. geez. ) hahaha! I took the liberty of reminding them na merong may birthday, so i went to tita annie's. Addict mode ng sandali, can't help it. FINALLY we went to lucky's house, mga 7 na! As soon as we stepped down the tricycle, we noticed the "kubo's" lights were on. We thought it was Ava or Mary so yung ISANG tao dun todo takbo as if may artista sa loob amputa! Geez... fag. Surprisingly, the one in the "kubo" was Allan, poor wet haired Allan... kanina pa naghihintay. Hehehe.. I called Baku twice, made chika to her while im with panda. ( chiri... :D ) Sad to say i was the the only STRAIGHT girl who came. hahahaha! ) geez... While Alllan and Lucky bought the "drinks" Ryan, Jake, Anjo and i sang our hearts out with thier new videoke. Todo kanta pa si Anjo eh! hahaha... Dapat ako na kakanta kaso bumalik na sila ( Darn, hindi nako nakapag concert. ) Grabe, sarap pala ng canned sisig! hahaha... ( Sisig... yum... ) and Liempo ( Mmmm... Grease... good for the heart.. hahahaha! ) Anyway, We ate, sang, talked about stuff and drank grande. ( Of course i was chaperoned. ) Dumating pa si Gib, so they all talked about "boy stuff" while i was sitting there thinking "Ano daw?" or "Huh?". Allan and i talked about lotsa stuff, bonding. hahaha... Pati rin kami ni Jake, kung pano siya na-wasted nung unang beses and stuff. Natatawa ako kay Ryan kasi nakaka 3 turns palang siya ayaw na niya. Tapos ako pa yung nagtutubos ng sa kanya minsan, pati rin yung kay Anjo. ( Who keeps on singing and singing! hahaha! Nice jo! ) Kuha pa kami ni panda ng food, to the point na lumamig na yung pagkain pag balik! ( hahahaha... bakit kaya?! ) tss... as always... ( hihihi... :) ) When we came back, we talked a bit more and then... THEN nako po... ewan ko na! May kumakanta na! wahahahahahaha! ( theme song pa ni Manny paqiao, san ka pa?! Tama ba spelling? ) Gib drove us home, tapos attempt attempt amp! Kaso missed shot. I realized that i found out soooooooooooooooo many things today, so MANY things. example? well, boys shouldn't be trusted when it comes to time... hahaha!

By the way, i would want to announce that the "Bureau Of Making Palakad to your Crush" is open once again for service. May bago nanaman akong client. Hahahaha!
Teeth's Laklak


December 11, 2004
May all the wh*res die with gore...
Posted at 09:09 AM

Arggh... Pucha. What's wrong with YOU?! I TRUSTED you, you and your pathetic excuse for a human being and what do you do? Stab me in the back... Fall for that idiotic mistake you made AGAIN?! F*ck you b*tch! You think you're so GREAT! Well.. for your info, grammar naman chong PLEASE lang... Grammar lang talaga eh.. please? For the love of the world! And what's with that dramatic "What-did-i-do-wrong" genre? Is that some sh*t you express to the numbness of society? So that they'll sympathize and be on your side? Tss... idiotic. You're just wearing a freakin mask to hide yourself from... malicious proportions?! Geez.. Just because you're "UNDER" someone's roof doesn't mean you have to DO the SAME THING to someone ELSE like * coughs *. That's what you get for being such a wh*re! And...

guess what?

There's TWO of you! Like oh my gosh is that one of those "Ruin rocker-chick's-life-because-she's-waaay-too-cool-and-could-ruin-my-reputation thingy?? Why do rocker chix always get pissed by those stupid malicious wh*res!? And speaking of them what about my favourite subject... MEN! Know what? They suck! Almost 8 out of 10 are nothing but lustful, high ego, selfish jerks who keeps on jerking themselves for no certain reason at all! Like GEEZ man,

GET A LIFE!

But there's one thing that REALLY pisses me off soooo much! Its men who's hormones are like... infinitely overwhelming!? Like what's WRONG with YOU?! After like almost scaring the sh*t out of an innocent little girl that she's pregnant you look for a flirty little WH*RE to get it on again?! And what's worse is, you did that to my FRIEND!? YOU'RE SICK! F*CK YOU!

Know what b*tch, you're so stupid...

You let yourself be humped by some over-lusted ass h*le who does NOTHING but make FAKE promises and tears up your little stupid heart! GEEZ... like what's wrong with you man?! Gay.... F*ck you... ass.. tss...

*By the way, im sorry for the harsh words... im just so pissed..
Korn's Pretty


This is a favorite post.December 13, 2004
The sweetest dream...
Posted at 09:31 AM

I never felt so happy in my entire life... nah... just kidding... :) but really... i feel so happy... why? secret.... hahahah! Wish i could tell! :) I thought this day totally sucks... but.... thanks to... grabe! hahahah! Actually, i was pissed the whole day, but when night came... and the cold air breezed in... woah... hahaha! i feel so happy... so happy and boozed up! hahaha :D but still... i just wanna let that certain bottle red horse know that...

I feel the same way...

and to tell you the truth... I really wanted to...

I should have said yes...

But don't worry, i will... if the same thing happens again...

and if you're really sure... and serious about it! hahaha!

such a sweet dejavu....
;)

Hahahaha.... basta! i just feel so happy right now, after 2 months of chaos and mayhem... biglang ganito... woah... kaso... darn... i just hope that would be premanent... like a new tatoo... oh well.... "nümi ü"
311's Lovesong


This is a favorite post.December 20, 2004
Truth or dare sucks..
Posted at 06:38 AM

Geez... that game sucks. Its Mai's birthday today, happy birthday mai! :) Anyway, it was also our "family day" Tss.. yeah right, its more of a "bingo bonanza"... Tss... We were gonna dance "officially missing you" for the opening. The practice was nice, but the real performance sucked. Tss.. Saab wasn't able to dance so we just improvised. Hehehe... Anyway, tss.. Tita Annie's shop was full ( As always ) so i had no choice but to stay at school. Tss.. boring.. Plus, i wasted 20 bucks on some freakin' bingo card.. Buti nalang kasama ko si Gio tsaka sila Chardo. Kulet kasi nila eh... hahaha.... Anyway, it was TOTALLY boring until... * coughs * Ahem ahem... Finally that freakin day was over! Hindi kinaya ng tricycle yung weight namin ( Gio kasi eh... hahaha! ) kaya naglakad nalang kami... Nung pumili kami ng tric, sayang... hihi.. sayang talaga... Anyway, as usual, they sang karaoke ( With the matching emote thingy pa. ) And i was there sitting as if my mouth has dissappeared. Too busy thinking of such things, occupied by the thoughts of someone...

Am i jealous?

Tss... anyway, we ate spagetti, chicken, kare kare, afritada ( i think ) and pomelo juice. Hehehe... pomelo. But i didn't eat Kare kare, sorry... Trauma. Uhmm.. what else? Oh yeah, we borrowed some VCDs. Pero isa lang naman pinanood namin. Eurotrip. Hahahah.. aliw. Anyway, i was yearning for some booze so there i went to Gio and as always, booze trip. bonding nga kami ni Gio e, hahaha... kaso, chaperoned ampu. Kaya naka 3 lang me... darn... Anyway, someone seems to be quite snobbish and quiet... Tss.. asar. Gio, Ava, Yang, Lucky, Allan and i were outside ( Booze trip ) while Chardo, Mai, Mary, Jesse, Jessica, Anjo, Jake, Ryan, and Mel were inside playing "Truth or dare" Hehehe... hindi nga truth or dare yun eh, its more of a...

"I'll-ask-you-a-question-that'll-interfere-your-personal-space-and soon-enough-everyone's-gonna-know-that-secret-you're-hiding." game

or in tagalog its...

"Bistuhan ng mga sikretong malupet."

Tss... SAYA grabe. Its soooo fun! To the point na i got so pissed off, which was absolutely no one's fault. ( Talaga lang ha. ) The wheel's starting to turn at this time, nakakabadtrip na. I went outisde, nag heart to heart nanaman kami nila Chard and Redge. Hahahaha... tapos bumalik nako. Gantihan, selosan, bistuhan, hindi nagpapansinan, saya noh?! Someone over the rainbow colored sh*t made a moment pa.... Tss... gay. Before i go berserk again, i quickly went outside and hanged out with Richard and Allan instead. Booze trip nanaman... hahaha... Anyway, hahaha...

Boozeness = sweetness

hehehe.... :) We all decided to go home, the party was starting to falter, and im getting really pissed off. But still, sweetness... stupid. Nasiraan pa kami pag uwi namin. Oh well... stig nga eh, when i went home, sakto... safe ako! wahahahah! We watched dawn of the dead... stig.. hahaha!
Stonefree's Listen


December 27, 2004
Playing with risk...
Posted at 09:35 AM

Risk... this day was full of risks. It all started when i was on my way to school, as always i was late, i was never early, hehehe.. My dad and i had a MAJOR argument, as in. Pasaway mode ako as always. Pano ba naman, he's acting as if he's some detective or something. Geez. But what can i do? He's my dad and that's his sort of "duty". Hehehe... I was sorta scared kasi baka hindi talaga ako makapunta sa christmas party namin. Anyway, my girl kada gave me gifts, i gave them thiers, how sweet ah. :) Anyway, when we were dismissed, i don't know what to do, sobrang paranoid ako about ditching to Lucky's house. I'd be so pissed if i didn't go, i have to! So there i decided to go to our "tambayan". As i was about to go out the gate, guess who's there? Geez... Why is HE here? Tss.... Time flies by when you're having fun, right? So there, naglaro nalang ako.. addict mode. 4:00 na. Ivan, Jesse and i went ahead to Lucky's, wala kasing magawa kayla tita puro addict sa xro din mga nandon.

Sir Benjo is that you?!

He was there, what a surprise! Hehehe... Paula's enjoying herself with spongebob ( sabi ko na eh.. haha! ), Omi is there too, with Roy, Mitch, Lianne, Redge and Winoy. Sound trip sila. Yang, Mary and Nikho are asleep. Ava nad Mel are inside the hut. Richard, Riyu, Jake, Ivan and Jesse are at the other hut. Dami namin noh? Hahaha... ( Just tell me pag may nakalimutan ako ) Anyway, bonding nga kami ni Ivan eh. Hehe... Share share about stuff. Trip mode nanaman kami, sir Benjo took the honors. Hehehe... Nice sir! As always, i was chaperoned by people.. Tss.. Feeling nila hindi ko parin kaya. Tss.. I was proved and tested by the experts ( experts daw eh noh? ) already okay?! I don't know if they really care about me or they're just making my day worse by taking my source of joy away from me. ( Source of joy daw eh noh... ) Tss... But Thanks anyway. Ans speaking of well... you know, this was the first time that i had so much, but nothing happend! What's wrong with me? hehe... Bonding kami ni Omi nun, talking about local rock bands. hahaha!

Support Local artists! Yeah...

Anyway, Hahaha... One of the downfalls of having a big barkada is lahat may sari-sarili silang mundo. But enough about that. Total laugh trip kami sa labas while the others chill inside the hut. Ivan, Jake, Riyu, Sir Benjo, Luigi, Richard, Gio, Allan, Redge and i played spin the bottle. But its more of a "Dare type". Aliw talaga, laugh trip. Hahahaha! Basta saya. But sadly sir went home, so we stopped na. So bale ako, si Winoy, Mary, Mitch, Jake, Chard, Riyu, Mel nalang ang tumuloy sa aming little "game". After that, heart to heart kami nila Joey. Stig nga eh, total bonding kami, and sermon sermon. It was a long time since i bonded with thier group. Grabe nga eh, i felt really comfortable and open while talking to them, maybe its because they're fellow rockers too. Haha.. So there. I was really pissed off at that time, buti nalang nandun sila. It was weird but they sorta cheered me up. Grabe, i glanced at our barkada's condition, sari sariling mundo ampu. May mga nakatambay sa kalsada (which was nice, tahimik kasi eh haha.. :D ), may mga nag sta-stargazing, may mga naguusap sa tabi tabi, may nakikipag daldalan sa phone. May mga naglalandian sa kadilim diliman ng buwan, may mga nawawala, may mga sumasayaw. Geez. Solitude hit me in the face once more so i spent my time alone beside the bathroom. Tsk tsk tsk... pasaway mode kasi eh... Oh, by the way si Allan and Yang na pala. They even proved it, ( Well atcually it was more of a dare, and he proved it more that she did. ) easy lang chong... hahaha! Shocked sila Mary eh! We all crammed inside Lucky's pajero ( is that how you spell it?) and went home at 11.

Why risk?

if you weren't able to read this entry earlier, sorry ka. :) Nah just kidding. I posted it agad kasi i was at a computer shop and wala na akong time na ayusin toh kaya yun. Basta.. Anyway, i just want you guys to know that we are all different, different in size, shape, personality, bladder disorder and appearance, and of course... our "point of view" of things. This is the main reason why some people agree on our prespectives, and why some of us don't... diba? But it doesn't mean that we should alwaysa stick to our prespectives, right? So there. And we all know what happens when we're driven by that thing called anger right? Diba? Our emotions speak LOUDER that our heads right?? So there, end of this sermon.
6 Cycle mind's Sige


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