"An oblivious death of a grotesque nightmare... blood dripping from it's decapitated abysmal body... the silhouette of the moon... overwhelmed completely by darkness... deceased bodies everywhere... while a sharp knife... thrusted at my head... covering my face with blood... as my head departs from my body... death is grinning... right beside me... isn't it a lovely sight?..." that's me... so don't you dare give a crap... im warning you! i have a dead salmon in my hand... and im not afraid to use it!

This week's "Last Song Syndrome" is...

Artist: Deftones
Song: Back to School

The feeling that engulfs my sanity is...

Sleeping soundly in the dark

Jakyu
& Deft_sheep

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Entries for February, 2005

February 3, 2005
Stupid day...
Posted at 09:09 AM

Tss... Haaay... What a day!? Finally i came out of my shell... but not entirely of course, one step at a time... Hehehe... It feels great! Ü Hahaha... Anyway, uhm... it was official, Allan's coming back to school. Bati na din sila ni Frank ( According to Allan ). That's nice... at least things are getting back to normal. Anyway, celebration nanaman.. hehehe... Ü So there there.. usual stuff. Practice kami sa prom. Hahaha... kulet ni Sam, he's back from Korea by the way. Bonding kami ni Joey Lui and Gio, laugh trip. We all went to Allan's house, and waited for him to finish taking a bath. It took him almost an hour, vanity... haha... Tagal kasi maligo ampu.. haha. Roy turned himself into a human pad paper, cause we scribbled stuff at his torso. Signed signatures, wrote names, drew objects ( With Paula's face at the middle, thanks to * Ahem * yours truly! ). We ate chicken and uhm.. chicken! ( From KFC ) Sarap nga eh, to the point na ang dami na naming nakain. Heheheh... Then there there there! The all time fave... Ü as always! Hehehe... Its a good thing iba yung dun at yung nasa Cogeo. * Phew! * Hehehe... Uhm.. Laugh trip kami, except some are making thier own world of conversation. Lui asked me if sa pula o sa puti, Allan said no. May care? hehe.. Ü Uhm... Hay nako, as always kalandian nanaman ni "You know who"

Tss... Rubbish...

Bonding kami ni hommie nun, sound trip.. Urband dub.. Lupet... Ü So there there, the usual stuff. Gio and i bought snacks, sarap mag lakad sa labas! It was very cold and soothing. As always, i had major trips to the bathroom. Once again i broke thier tissue holder.. oops... Pero i fixed it naman, no harm done. Heheh... Gio and Joey went home early, awww.... Wala nang gulo. By the way,

Inamin na po ni giorgio yupangco na may gusto siya sa sis ko...!

Yes naman... Hahaha.... The rest went home at 8. Iniwan ba naman ako?! Arghh... I was very absent minded at that time, kaya yun naiwan tuloy. pano ba naman... tsk tsk... stupid me... hehehe... Then guess what? My fave was there! * Wink wink * Oh geez... Why oh why was it sooo late! :( But i won't let that pass by so easily! fave ko eh! hahaha.... :D Kaso hindi naubos, awww... kung puwede sana take home?So there there! I played with thier little brown puppy, cute cute kasi eh! Unlike the others who turned out to be very snobbish! Sobrang tagal ng sis ko so i took a quick nap muna before going home. My sis suddenly texted me, telling me im in big trouble na. Oh no... So i hurriedly fixed myself and hinatid nako ni Allan pauwi, as well as his mom. My story ends here..... the rest was well... confidential, and deep. ( Stop thinking maliciously, its a parent - daughter thing.. okay? Kung ano ano kasi iniisip... Tsk tsk.. ) By the way....

There goes Mr. Brightside again... hahaha ang saya saya! Ü As in sooooooooooooooobra! Grabe! Hindi ko toh ma- take! Hahahaha! There there, here i go again! :D Im so relieved, but confused though.... Pero still.... hahahaha! Na na na na na na na na na na ! :p

by the way... song stuff http://www.xanga.com/home.aspx?user=XaNgA_MuSiC
Finch's Perfection Through Silence


February 7, 2005
Boys can be girls...
Posted at 09:32 AM

Hmm... It's true. The world's upside down nowadays. Hmm... Isn't it odd? Well, in my case its not. Boys are now more talkative than girls. They can be more vain, and they're definately gossip frenzy. You may think they're just insignificant beings that care less about the world. But deep inside, they're girls too. Why? Well in my case, they know more gossips than i do... and to think im a girl?! Dinaigan pa nila ang isang babae... tsk tsk... Hahahaha... Well, what can i say? I'm anti-social. ( Well... sorta. ) But anyway, geez... I could never imagine men talking about silly gossips about women. How, weird... they take interest in the opposite sex. How enthusiastic they are when they share secerts and how eager they are when they want to know more. Hahaha... But what irritates me most is thier stupid EGO... Haaay... Where do i begin? tsk tsk tsk... well i'm kind of in a hurry so i don't have much time to express my anger in the * snickers * GAYish ego of men... Anyway, they're really really good when it comes to comforting women. But im not saying they're better. Both are good, and both have thier own advantages. Even they're comical insults brings comfort, weird isn't it? Hehehe... Ü They treasure those girl-guy friendships as well... Even if it's not that obvious, deep inside they do. They're jsut too damn shy. That's the problem with most men! They're not emotional... But when they're too emotional ( more emotional than women ) it freaks me out. Oh, and one last thing... I really like fighting with men.... cuz they don't have the guts to fight back... the way they do when men pisses them off... That's good, we can be on top! hehehe... Ü


Well... this day is rather boring though. Did nothing but sleep, draw and listen to hommie's mp3. Stig... Death blooms... I'm still pissed off because i expected too much of what might last saturday. But still, i recovered quickly... That's what i get when expecting too much... Haayy.... That's one thing we should remember....

NEVER NEVER NEVER expect too much... especially from people...

Haaaay... Sayang. Tss... A-hole... Heheh... Ü A letter just arrived from Miriam, i hope i passed... If i don't well... so so... hehehe... Im so glad im out of my shell, i can see the good effects of it... Plus, im not that "Hoplessly depressed suicidal girl that cries every night regretting the things that happened" type. Im more of the "Piss me off and i'll fight back" Thingy. Hahah... Pero if there was another chance for Mr. Brightside to butt in, go ahead.... But if he does something wrong.... Tss... Screw him... Ü
Medvayne's Death Blooms


February 11, 2005
Cramming is good...
Posted at 04:43 AM

Today was a very tiring day... After cramming over that stupid term paper that cost me over a 100 bucks, im just here typing till 2. Haay... kay boring naman i'd say... Anyway, guess what?

I passed Miriam! Yipee...

I can't believe it! Well, honestly it was easy. But i didn't actually get the idea of passing with flying colors. Geez... Now my kada is expecting me to make "libre" to all of them... Grabehan ha?! In fairness... ilan ba kami sa kada? Hmm... about 20!? Ugh... Well what can i say? We're one happy family. Tapos add-ons pa sila Gio. Woah! Ang dami... talk about wallet massacre! Hahahaha.... Oh well... Anyway, this day's boring. Found out lotsa stuff though.

In fairness, Mr. Brightside talked to me yesterday. I figured those quick glances and awkward gestures are up to something. Hahah... But geez, he only talked to me for like 10 seconds ( With the matching "look into my eyes" appraoch. ) Tss.. enough. It was fun while it lasted, but now its getting lame... tss... jerk. Anyway, im all alone here. Bored. Tss...

Anyway, i found out some things today. There's another rivalry at school. Batch wars nanaman... Haay... and the dance steps for our prom? Tss.. lame. Well what can i say? Its prom.. I'm not even that excited about the prom. Well... honestly, i am... a bit. Cause i decided that i will make a major makeover at prom night! As in MAJOR. Inside and out... hope it turns out fine, my hair is pissing me off... Oh no, i still have no date for the prom?! Oh my! Heheh... I wonder if Mr. Brightside can be my date... Hmm... may pupuntahan daw kasi eh, even if he's dying to go... tss.. jerk... Hahah... Ü I found out another thing today, haayy... men are such flirts. Gosh! What morons... i can't believe that they could be such... flirts... how pathetic.. I hope i could just get a wooden bat and hit thier ego-istic heads...

Ahh... the wonders of hating men... boosts up my confidence... hahahaha! :D
Carrie by Stephen King ( Great book... fantastic... * Claps* ) The used's Blue and yellow


February 13, 2005
Just like a brother...
Posted at 08:03 AM

* Yawn * I thought this would be another typical day until i found out that another robbery attempt occured at our house. Geez... good thing nothing was stolen or anything. * Phew! * Anyway, we went to UST for thier science exhibit. ( Its a requirement by the way. ) It was my first time to be in a LRT. I feel so ignorant about that card thingy! Hahahah... It was also my first time to go to UST. Grabe ang layo ng biyahe... but its worth it. I was fascinated by the huge paintings and old structures In the building. Ganda tignan, very vintage. Hehehe… the exhibit was quite fine actually. Anyway, nuff bout that. We went to Metro east, ate at Frio and then went bolwing at Sta. Lu, kulet nga eh. Total “gurl bonding” nga eh.. stig… hahahaha… Its been a very long time since I came with them to the mall. Laugh trip, as always! Hahahahaha… Ü I thought I’d be left out at first, mainly because my best bud wasn’t there. But thankfully, we all got along pretty well… what a relif! Anyway, sarap pala mag bowling… Hahaha… It was pretty amusing. And the tiny donuts were to die for! Sobrang sarap niya! Hahahaha…. Mmm… donuts… * drools * By the way, today is Jesse’s birthday. It took me 4 years to be absolutely sure that his birthday was Feb 12, not 9! Hahahaha! Ü

Happy Birthday Tommy! Ü

We went to Akira’s house, today was also his “birthday party”. But technically speaking his birthday is tomorrow. Hahahahah.. Laugh trip nanaman kami while waiting for the food. Hehehehehe… Aliw kasi yung mocking bird, and Akira’s pet “Dalmatian” ( Which turns out to be a plastic chair with black dots. ) We played Spongebob while waiting, cute talaga ni Patrick. First time kong kumain ng konti when it comes to parties. Sobrang nabusog na kasi kami, sa sobrang kain at hangin sa kakatawa. Hahaha.. We reminisced and laughed at at all the mispronounced words we said. Like Mai's "hobbit” and Mary’s “Steer” ( Which is supposed to be stereo ). And when I said nung nag egg roll sila Mitch and Mary, si Mitch ostrich egg tapos si Mary century egg! It took them approximately 5 mins to get the meaning of that joke… Hahahaha! Ü Anyway, my head was aching, at that time… good thing there was cake! Mmmm… cake… * Drools *. We played the “ever famous barkada game” 1 2 3 pass, and it was fun! Especially when a lizard fell on the table, making them all scream like banshees. Ang kulet ng mga older chicks dun, sila ate “what’s-her-name”. Hahahah! It was already 7 in the evening, Akira’s still not there. He was having a date with his beau while we wait our butts off for him at his house. Heheh.. saya noh? Dumating na sila Roy, Ryan and Chard but still no sign of my anak. Haaay… dalaga na talaga anak ko… hehehehe… ;) Ate “what’s-her-name” brought out some wine, the name was Nove-something. It was sweet… I felt like drinking grape juice. Hahahaha! By the way, bait talaga ng mum ni Akira, she called me beautiful! Hahahaha…. Ü

Anyway, Hay nako! Tss… talaga… snobbish jerk… Hehehe… I really don’t know why he’s like that, even when I texted him, still he was snobbish… Tss… I think I know why… hehehe… Hmm… but still I’m not so sure. Anyway, It was 9 something, the party’s dead. Then suddenly there goes Akira with his exaggerated smile and kinky little eyes. It was pretty obvious that he enjoyed their date… Hahaha… anak ko talaga! So there. Hinatid namin si Mary and Yang sa gate. But Regde, Akira and I were too tired to catch up with them so we decided to stay. The view of the city was incredible… and the cold gushing of the wind was soothing… Brotherly bonding kaming 3 dun, while staring lovingly at the city lights. We were talking bout what to do on Valentines and stuff. Tss… Valentines… What a freakin’ day… Rubbish… Grabe… I was so touched at that time… to the point na napaiyak nako. Why you ask? Secret… ;) They treat me as if im thier younger sister... Awww... Ü So there we were back at the upper living room. Ryan and Anjo was Playing Dragonball, Redge was listening to some tunes, Roy was sleeping and Allan was busy with his cellphone. The rest was watching Ryan and Anjo playing and me? I talked to Gumby… How sweet… Ü Mr. Brightside was out of reach…

OUT OF REACH TALAGA!

Tss…… A-hole… Bonding kami ni anak at that time, hahaha… kulet nga niya eh! Grabe, Akira can drive?! Woah… Hahahah… Ryan and Roy made me a headrest and as for * ahem ahem *… Tss… A-hole… B. trip nanaman sa bahay!? But this time it was with my sis and couz. I was too tired and too full at that time so I passed, and went to bed instead… Hehehe… by the way.

Happy Birthday Akira!
( My ugly maturing blooming son… haha! Just kidding! ) Ü


Sponge cola's KLSP


February 18, 2005
Those sweet words...
Posted at 10:22 AM

* ahem * my cute and cuddly…

Huchi bunchy...

Heheheh! Ü From dusk till dawn we texted each other... exchanging sweet quotes and that never ending "ingat ka ha?" ( with the matching smile on our texts ). I spent 75 pesos because of huchi, talk about abusing your cell phone?! Heheheh... Ü Anyway, today was a great, a bit irritating but great. Sam ( The Korean ) said I look beautiful. I was dumbfounded at what he said. I kinda get a bit pissed off when people say I’m “pretty” or something. Cause I really don’t know if they really think I’m pretty or their just being sarcastic. I became Joey’s partner ( temporarily ) at our dance. Sir Noel was getting all aggravated again, but whenever I make a mistake, he just laughs. Anyway, I saw * ahem ahem * looking at me, but tss... I don't care anymore... He's nothing but a pathetic egoistic “chick boy”! There should be a word that’s more vulgar and worse than a man w****...

Like man bad or....

manore... yeah...

He’s manore... yeah…

Hahahahah.... Ü So anyway, Mel, Jessica and I shot their commercial at Mcdo and Otto Shoes. Laugh trip nga e! Hahaha... Then I went back to school cause I forgot something. Tonichi and Milan were there, as well as Hazel and the rest of their gang. But they left as soon as they went in so Tonichi, Milan and I were the only ones left. Kulet nila, laugh trip nanaman as always... Huchi on the other hand was sooo kulit! Ü we met somewhere and talked bout stuff for an hour... Hinatid pa niyako pauwi and guess what...

Secret... Ü

By the way, he called me last night, and even gave me chocolates. Heheheh... He's sooo makulit.... and sweet... Ü Woah! So many people are online today. I’m chatting with Akira ( My ugly white son… heheheh.. ), Luigi, Richard and Jesse right now. Bonding nga kami ni Akira eh, I never knew he could be that caring. That’s nice… Ü Oh, and I had a chat with Jed too! He said "Punta ka pag satrday, di ka na namin nakikita eh.." I miss them already, all their kakulitan and laugh trips... Haaaay… When oh when will I ever attend Jzone again? My hommie Anjo talked on the phone when I got home. He kept on asking me what’s that “secret” Saab told us.

“ I won’t tell you Anjo… ;p

By the way…

Someone's getting jealous… Haha! Serves you right! As for Mr. * ahem * Brightside, he's still there.... in the darkest corner of oblivion... Hahahaha... Ü

Norah Jones' Those Sweet Words


This is a favorite post.February 19, 2005
One more day before doom's day?
Posted at 11:01 AM

Guess where I am? I’m at U.P! Hahahah… This day sucks so much! I lost my shawl at the mall, so I bought a new one. What a waste of money… I wasn’t able to attend Jzone again, darn! I even promised Israel, Jedrik and Ivan that’ll ill go. Darn… Huchi talked to me on the phone last night. I was so scared cause I’m the only one at our house. I’m not used being home alone, kinda traumatized by the sudden “robbery attempts”. Anyway, I walked all over Sta. Lu to buy a necklace for the prom. I saw Mitch at Informatics, and Arn Arn, Rochelle and Leo at the escalator. Arghhh…. Prom! I’m really not that excited about our Prom. Sure it’ll be on Shangri-la and sure I’ll be looking great in my gown but geez! I won’t be able to go out after prom! Tss… Pucha… I’m really pissed off cause I can’t go out, no party no tripping no nothing! Damn… Oh by the way, Allan is finally allowed to go to the prom. Good for * coughs * you. But still I’m quite excited, and giggly again. Hahahaha… Ü I’m really looking forward to that “ major make-over kick ass I’m over you so get out of my sight thingy” that’ll I do at the prom.

Yeah…

Thingy… Ü

Anyway, uhm… I need your help, I want to ask you guys something… am I pretty? Do I look okay? Sorry. I’m not used to the vanity “Oh I’m so pretty * take picture of self * I’m the queen of the world” thingy. I don’t know, every time I look at the mirror I keep on asking “What’s worng with me?” Sometimes ( For me ) I look okay, but most of the times… I look like a dumb retard. Maybe it’s because I’m not a “kikay flirt”, or maybe I just need a makeover. Wala lang.. I’m just curious of what people think, when it comes to appearances. Arghh.. What the heck I don’t care.. Hahahahaha… I kinda get pissed when men say I’m pretty or something. Cause I don’t know if they’re just saying that to get what they want or make us like them to boost their stupid ego or be sarcastic and stuff. But anyway, enough about that. Our Prom is tomorrow night, I’m so nervous. I’m not used to the gown thingy ( With the matching high-heeled shoes and feminine attitude. ) I promise I’ll post the pictures at our prom. Hehehehe… My cousin Daniel is my prom date, and still we don’t know how we’ll go there. Haaay… its getting boring here in U.P. It’s 7 in the evening already… oh well… prom prom prom… I hope it turns out fine

* sigh *



A picture of myself while having our practice for our prom... I look stupid... Sheepish-ly stupid.. Hahahah... Ü
Story of the Year's Page Avenue


February 21, 2005
As if i could be a commercial model...
Posted at 08:02 AM

We had our taping today ( Yes feeling naman nito... hahaha) Nah... It was just for our project in Makabayan. I waited at Mcdo for 2 hrs! Arghh... Tagal kasi ni Mitch. She said she'll be arriving at 2 pm because she's still dropping by to her ojt. 2 "daw"... wow... 2 nga... 2 hours later! So anyway, i decided to chat a bit with my friends. Kit was teasing me again, saying that he's cute * Coughs real hard, as if the heart's gonna pop out * and stuff. As well Akira, my ever so white son and Anjo another "Pacutie". Finally, Mitch and i saw each other, after 10 years. We went to school just to meet with Yang, Mai and Baku, then went to Marville to ask Anjo about the videocam. Guess who we saw on the way to Anjo's... Manore... Tss... with his stupid "wet look" style thingy... looks more like a wig glued to his flat head to me.. hahaha... So anyway, we went to Anjo's house, did a little goofing off with the camera and headed off to my grandma's house to shoot our commercial. Well.. it was funny... laugh trip. especially the piggy waiterss! We shot our commercial for 3 hours! Grabe... then self trip nako sa videocam. Hehehe... Anyway, had my new haircut... may bangs in fairness.. hahaha... i look stupid though, heck do i care? not really... Once again my load reached zero because of Huchi, he even asked me if... never mind... Ü haha..


3 Doors Down's Let me go


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