Posted at 03:49 AM
Waaah... I just came from my retreat and whooooh, was it nice. Sure there were a few GLITCHES but besides that, everything turned out great. Let me start at home... * ahem * sa retreat nalang mismo..
My dad and i ate first before i could go inside the conference hall. Everyone was surprised cause i arrived very VERY early! ( The retreat started at 8 : 30, i came at 1 in the afternoon... pasaway... ) So there. Argh... geez i can't remember much anymore. Basta there were open forums and some tear jerking moments... so early nga eh... hahaha! We ate some snacks, there were lots of snacks by the way. While waiting for the next activity Mitch, Nikho and I went to the pool to witness the sunset. Grabe, ang ganda talaga ng sunset, and the water lilies really gave that "sentimental touch"! I really wish i had a picture... It was really soothing to the soul... Plus, Luigi was there playing Urbandub's "New Tattoo" in his guitar, song trip nanaman kami... haha! I was really relaxed and at peace with myself at that time... it felt sooo good... Except for those stupid mosquitos!Our next activity was the positive negative thingy. At my paper they wrote that i was always laughing, that i’m friendly ( Well.. hahah :D ) fun to be with, funny, SWEET and thoughtful ( I bet Ivan wrote that! hehe.. ) I never realized na yun pala ang nakikita nila sakin... Ü But on top of all that, there were 2 people who surprised me with what they wrote. One is Lucky of course ( Uyyy chiri... tss... hahaha.... ) cause he wrote there that i am trustworthy, kind, a weirdo and a total pasaway ( Well what can i say? pasaway talaga ako! heheh.. Ü ). The other was Allan, wherein he wrote that i am astig, kind ( Oh really now? haha.. ) and makulit. Actually nasulatan niya yung mga yun sa paper niya, hindi sa paper ko (Tsk tsk.. antok na... ). After that we had dinner, but it turned out to ba an activity as well. We were blind folded and arranged at random ( Random daw... ). Dapat yung mga katabi mo mag-serserve ng food mo, and you have to serve them too. So therefore you can't serve yourself some food. i was the 4th to be seated somewhere. I really hoped that i could sit beside * ahem * But sadly i peeked through my blind fold and saw him a few chairs away... awww... too bad. So anyway, Niko was so irritating cause he kept on whispering my name, nalaman tuloy ng iba na ako yung nandon. Plus, he kept on tapping and pulling the sleeves of my jacket. Nagulpi ko pa nga si Ms. Lolit dahil sa kanya! Hahaha... Arghh... I kept on wondering who's beside and in front of me. After the prayer i slowly took off my blind fold and…
Tadaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa……….
It was Lucky, whoopee… plus, Jake was in front of me. ( Great, what more could I ask for? ) So there, people started serving each other some food, as always laugh trip nanaman, nandun kasi si Frank sa table. I was just waiting for someone who needs to be served ( Which turns out to be my student Ryan. ), while looking elsewhere for my kada. i thought that no one would serve me cause everyone was just serving each other. i really wished that * ahem * would serve me, but sadly he’s far far away… Then suddenly Lucky asked me if I want some fish…
“ Fish? Fish?? Are you serving me some Fish? ”
i was really surprised… i thought he was serving Jake, kasi naguusap silang dalawa. Pero medyo pasaway din tong si Lucky, ang dami niyang nilagay! But it was nice, no more no less… hihihi… Ü i fed Mitch a crumpled tissue paper in a spoon, she ate it, she spitted it out, it was funny. Gio ate as if he’s sentenced to death the day after. Hahahaha! Sobrang dami niyang nakain, as in! After that i saw * ahem * looking at me. I don’t know if its by accident or by fate that we always glance at each other and then quickly turn away. Geez… he’s so confusing, well what do i expect? He’s a guy… tss… Our last activity was the “ What did you learn and open up something thingy ”. Wherein we say what we felt at the past activity, and then say anything we want, apologize to people, say thanks to our friends and expose our affection to our significant others ( Just like what Ryan did ). And speaking of Ryan, I was really astonished at his commitment and bravery. I wish most men are like that. But the down fall of it was it was too fast.
You can’t rush love… love is patient…
One thing that i learned was to express ourselves emotionally to people, to let it all out. Its just like vomiting, you have to spit it out or else it will upset your stomach and make things worse. Our stomach is very sensitive to acid ( vomit ) thus it wants the vomit out of your body. But it can’t, it needs the mind and the body’s help. If you don’t let out the things that you really want to say, it will ruin your personality, thoughts and sanity as well.
NO ONE can handle his own problems….
When it was my turn i shared to them what i felt about that activity. It was really heart-warming when we serve people. That’s what i felt when I served Ryan. It hurts when you’re not served because it shows that nobody cares about you. I was really surprised when Lucky served me, but still there’s this thought that he was just forced to. I also said thanks to our batch, told them that i love them so much! That if it weren’t for them I wouldn’t be here right now and stuff. I also said thanks to my ever loving kada and of course, to… you know. I was supposed to say thanks to * ahem * but, he was so damn snobbish! Argh… So anyway huchi kept on texting me quotes, i feel a bit guilty cause i didn’t text back any quote at all. So sorry… After the “session” Lucky came rushing to me and said thanks and good night blankly. Geez.. after pouring my guts out in front of our batch all he can say is a plain ol’ thank you!? Tss… that’s the last time that i’ll do some crappy thing like that for him! Geez… I talked to my son Akira and cried out my problem. He’s not into giving advices but at least he showed that he cared…
Isn’t he just the sweetest and ugliest son? Hehehe… Ü
I just wish his dad is like that too... hahaha! Kit and Allan passed by, then surprisingly Kit asked me if i was okay ( Cause i was crying at that time ). May care? Awww... Ü Just as i was about to go back to my room Lucky rushed to me again and asked what’s the problem. Once again our never ending argumentation began! As always… He said something that smothered my heart, but it was okay… i guess… I never knew that after such a long time he still… well you get the picture... Still we fought but it all came down to a sweet tight sentimental hug….Awwwwwww….. Ü
And the ambiance totally matched our little "scene", you know... a beautiful full moon, strong cold breeze... leaves falling from the trees... its nice... Ü By the way, i slept at 3 in the morning cause of all those palanca letters! Grabe! Kakapagod...
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